I LOVE paying bills! Am I nuts? Or what?
Unpaid bills stress me out big time BUT the relief and sense of satisfaction, when I press confirm on the keyboard and wait to receive my receipt number, leaves me feeling back in control of my life.
Are you seeing a continuing theme here?
I NEEDED to de-clutter my house to feel like I was gaining control over my life…
I LOVE paying my bills for the exact same reason…
Am I a control freak?
The phrase was first used in the late 1960s — an era when great stress was laid on the principle of ‘doing one’s own thing’ and letting others do the same.
Control freaks are often perfectionists, who believe if they are not in total control, they risk exposing their own inner vulnerabilities. When a control freak’s pattern is broken, “the Controller is left with a terrible feeling of powerlessness … But feeling their pain and fear brings them back to themselves”.(Patricia Evans, Controlling People (Avon 2002) p. 129 and p. 274)
I know that I NEED to control my own environment (and I’m very lucky as I live alone and can do so) because I feel powerless against my Fibromyalgia. I take all the appropriate medication; I pace myself as applicable; I supplement my diet with numerous vitamins and minerals; I have embraced a multi-modal treatment plan; and I have all the tools in my toolbox to help control my pain YET, if my body decides it wants to FLARE, there is nothing I can do about the pain and fatigue, except to give in to it. So, of course, I feel powerless – don’t you?
Many control freaks (now using the term without any derogatory meanings) are Type A personalities. Hmm…many sufferers of FM are Type A personalities.
Coincidence? Could FM be your body’s alert system to take it easy, to stop and smell the roses, to let the universe handle the world around you?
- Resist the Temptation to be a Control Freak (conversationagent.com)
- How To Tame Your Inner Control Freak (forbes.com)
- Control freak! (lilyroseyolyz.wordpress.com)
- Controlling Control (venturegal.com)