Thunderball

007 heads to Malvern East to recover Good Health and Energy stolen by SPECTRE agent nicknamed Fibromyalgia in an international extortion scheme.

I have now been on the Daiichi Sankyo sanctioned medication for 7 days. It would be absolutely fantastic if my medication was the placebo because I’m feeling pretty damn good; and that would mean that my Fibromyalgia was gone.20151002_132317

090915 Kimba pot 1Today I woke up, took Kimba (my puppy) out for some play, did a load of washing, hung it out in the sun; and folded some dry laundry. A pretty good morning! So, I doubt that I’m on the placebo.

It hasn’t all been smooth sailing, though. A couple of nights ago, I had to put some ointment in a place that we don’t talk about in good company. It’s a reoccurrence of an ‘accident’ that happened quite a while ago. The wonderful ointment for this lovely and embarrassing condition has the possible (and very probable for us) side effects of headaches and dizziness. Ta Da! Two minutes after application, stabbing pain in the left side of my head – not happy, Jan! The minimal amount of Panadol that I am permitted (in the research study) couldn’t touch the pain. I knew that if I could just get rid of the headache (I was sure the headache was from the ointment and not the new drugs), I’d be okay. The headache (and extreme light sensitivity – you know how it is) lasted 3 days.

Today, I woke up…energised! Bring on the good feelings!

 

NOTE: Emeritus Research is still recruiting for the study, if anybody is interested. Click for  the Consent Form and information. Contact Daiichi using this email address – SM_DS5565_FM_Info@incresearch.com.

As well as the 1000 person study in the US and Canada, Daiichi is also recruiting in:

  • Campse and Coffs Harbour, NSW, Australia;
  • Maroochydore, Sherwood and Southport, Queensland, Australia;
  • Hobart, Tasmania, Australia;
  • Malvern East, Victoria, Australia;
  • Tallin and Tartu, Estonia;
  • Baldone, Jekabpils, Liepaja, Ogre and Riga, Latvia;
  • Auckland, Hamilton, Nelson, Tauranga and Wellington, New Zealand;
  • Banska Bystrica, Bratislava and Dubnica Nad Vahom, Slovakia; and,
  • Reading, Berkshire; Chesterfield, Derbyshire; Wellingborough, Northamptonshire: Atherstone, Warwickshire; and
  • Belfast, United Kingdom.

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From Japan With Love

007 willingly falls into an assassination ploy involving a naive Russian Japanese pharmaceutical company in order to retrieve a cure for Fibromyalgia that was stolen by SPECTRE.

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I’ve been keeping an electronic diary for the research study. Each morning, it asks me what is the highest level of pain I have experienced over the past 24 hours. Yes, I hate that question…and now I get to answer it at least once a day.

By the time I started the diary, I had not had any pain meds (except Panadol) for 4 days. Bloody! Bloody! I had forgotten about the stiffness and inability to sleep so on Friday, after 3 hours sleep, I thought: well, I haven’t been in this kind of pain in a very long time (it’s funny how I forget how bad the pain actually was at its worse) but it’s not a 9 or 10 – I’m not in hospital so I answered:

pain

On Saturday, the mind-blowing headaches in the bones above and below my eyes were back. Bummer! I had forgotten about those; but, I thought: well, I haven’t been in this kind of pain in a very long time but it’s not a 9 or 10 – I’m not in hospital so I answered:

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On Sunday, the costochondritis returned. I lay on my couch all day under a heated blanket; but, I thought: well, I haven’t been in this kind of pain in a very long time but it’s not a 9 or 10 – I’m not in hospital so I answered:

pain

On Monday, my stomach and lower back began spasming. Oh, here comes the irritable everything syndrome. I thought: well, I haven’t been in this kind of pain in a very long time but it’s not a 9 or 10 – I’m not in hospital so I answered:

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On Tuesday, I had a funeral so I didn’t fill in anything all day – I was afraid to take my electronic diary with me because I couldn’t work out how to turn off the alarm.

On Wednesday and Thursday, my hands and feet felt (but didn’t look) swollen and full (I can’t think of any other word), so uncomfortably full so, I thought: well, I haven’t been in this kind of pain in a very long time but it’s not a 9 or 10 – I’m not in hospital so I answered:

pain

Each day the pain had gotten worse but I had started too high on the scale. It was never the worst pain I have ever experienced but, each day should have been higher than the day before.

Maybe it’s time to consider a different way to ask the question? Maybe it should be, if yesterday was a 5, how much pain have you experienced in the last 24 hours? And then, is it more (or less) pain than yesterday?

NOTE: Emeritus Research is still recruiting for the study, if anybody is interested. Click for  the Consent Form and information. Contact Daiichi using this email address – SM_DS5565_FM_Info@incresearch.com.

As well as the 1000 person study in the US and Canada, Daiichi is also recruiting in:

  • Campse and Coffs Harbour, NSW, Australia;
  • Maroochydore, Sherwood and Southport, Queensland, Australia;
  • Hobart, Tasmania, Australia;
  • Malvern East, Victoria, Australia;
  • Tallin and Tartu, Estonia;
  • Baldone, Jekabpils, Liepaja, Ogre and Riga, Latvia;
  • Auckland, Hamilton, Nelson, Tauranga and Wellington, New Zealand;
  • Banska Bystrica, Bratislava and Dubnica Nad Vahom, Slovakia; and,
  • Reading, Berkshire; Chesterfield, Derbyshire; Wellingborough, Northamptonshire: Atherstone, Warwickshire; and
  • Belfast, United Kingdom.

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A Migraine (Without the Wrinkles)

Australian chronic migraine sufferers, who have just about given up hope, after trying at least three preventive medications, may have reason to have a spring in their step… the Pharmaceutical Benefits Scheme (PBS) has started funding Botox injections to prevent chronic migraines.

What are headaches?

(Lucky you, if you have to ask!)

migrainesHeadaches are quite literally, an ache (sore sensation) in the head. They are often a symptom of a pathological systemic process, such as dehydration, fasting, illness, stress or medication side effects. Most people will get a headache from time to time, with mild to moderate discomfort.

Botox, which has various cosmetic and medicinal uses (Good-bye wrinkles!), is subsidised for adults who suffer headaches for at least 15 days a month.

Types of headache include:

  • Common headache
  • Tension headache
  • Migraines
  • Rebound headache
  • Drug related headache
  • Coital headache (a rare type of severe headache that occurs at the base of the skull before orgasm during sexual activity)
  • Food reaction headache

Rarely a headache is an indication of something more serious including haemorrhagic stroke, infection, hypertension (high blood pressure) and tumour. If you are experiencing a sudden onset of the “worst headache” of your life, consult immediate emergency medical attention.

How the brain experiences pain

The brain is a complex network of nerves, which transmit messages throughout the body. The symptoms of both headaches and migraines may feel like the brain is in pain, however; the brain itself does not experience sensation. The membrane of and vessels in the brain, and pain sensitive structures (neck, face, sinus, eyes, and ears) near the brain have a network of sensory nerves. The brain expresses the messages of pain from these neighbouring structures as a headache. This shows us why headaches are so common and causes so varied.

What are migraines?

Migraines are less common than common headaches. Around 20% of the population have experienced a migraine. Predisposition to migraines include female gender, under the age of 40 and family history. It is said that migraines are more common in people with high stress lifestyles or low mood, however; these two factors may not show true cause-and-effect.

Chronic illness (such as chronic headaches or migraines) is known to cause low mood and increased lifestyle stress. The World Health Organisation research concluded that a chronic headache has a greater impact on functioning than other neurological diseases. Furthermore, the WHO highlighted that the impact of migraines is upon not only individuals, but also workplaces and the economy. 36% of migraine suffers reported taking at least 2 sick days a month because of migraines. A proportion of this group were unable to work full-time.

Unlike tension headaches, which are localised to the forehead region, pain associated with migraines is located to one side of the head. The pain is described as throbbing and unbearable, and can be made worse by movement. Individuals may also suffer from in the lead up to, during or after a migraine:

  • Nausea
  • Vomiting
  • Light sensitivity
  • Sound sensitivity
  • Smell sensitivity
  • Neck and shoulder pain
  • Physical weakness
  • General malaise
  • Visual disturbances called auras before the migraine begins.
  • Confusion

It is helpful to manage your migraines with a health professional. Keep a diary of symptoms to help diagnose your migraines accurately and keep note any triggers such a medications, alcohol, illness and stress.

Migraine treatment

pain-pills-690x388Traditionally, migraine treatment consists of a range of medications that are preventative and acute responses. Analgesia is an accessible and first line response to migraines, which can be managed by the individual at home and in consultation with a pharmacist. Usual analgesia includes paracetamol, codeine and non-steroidal anti-inflammatory drugs. Each analgesic migraine treatment has benefits, and many people may choose a combination of medicines to reduce the severity of symptoms of migraines.

Migraines may be accompanied by nausea and vomiting, making oral medication difficult to take without anti-emetic medication (or using a different administration route such as suppository). Anti-emetics are drugs that reduce the feelings of nausea and incidence of vomiting. Anti-emetic migraine treatments are available through pharmacies or on a prescription.

Natural migraine treatments are often used complimentary to usual migraine treatments. Using lavender and peppermint oil as a temple massage or on an oil burner is thought to reduce painful migraine symptoms, and drinking ginger tea to calm nausea and vomiting. As always with any medication, check that your choice of complimentary medicines are not contraindicated.

If migraines are significantly affecting quality of life and usual treatment is not successful, there are other types of medication that have been identified as useful in migraine treatment. These are identified as anti-epileptics (works on the nerves), anti-depressants (works on brain chemicals called neurotransmitters), beta blockers (blood pressure tablets) and muscle relaxants.

Muscle relaxant injections as a ‘muscle relaxant’ migraine treatment in Australia is relatively new. Traditional muscle relaxants such as benzodiazepines are addictive, have diminishing returns (you need more and more of the drug to get the same effect) and are an acute treatment, rather than preventative.  Botox migraine treatment consists of injections into 7 muscle groups of the neck and head, two of the areas associated with headaches. A specially trained neurologist gives patients injections into their head and neck every 12 weeks. Up to 155 units are used across the corrugators (near the inner eyes), procerus (between the eyebrows), frontalis (forehead), temporalis (temples), occipital (back of the head), cervical paraspinal (top of neck) and trapezius (base of the neck).

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These are given with a fine needle in 31 spots, including the forehead, temples and back of the head, says Melbourne neurologist Dr Richard Stark (who just happens to be the father of my Melbourne neurologist!).

 

Int Fibro

Where Have I Been?

So, I’ve been MIA (Missing In Action)…why?

I have been slowly weaning off my Lyrica (see posts below for previous updates) to see if we can find something else that will allow me to feel less pain but with less side effects.

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And I have finally made it to Week 6…

No! I do not feel miraculously better – in fact, I feel horrible. I didn’t realise what the Lyrica had been protecting me from (although it didn’t feel like much at the time). Let’s work from the head down:

  • No respite from the permanent headache
  • Very lazy right eye
  • Cheekbones growing out of my face
  • (Even more) increased sound sensitivity
  • Everything smells pungeant
  • Sensitive teeth
  • Itchy face
  • Aching neck and shoulders
  • Swollen-feeling wrists and hands (without swelling)
  • Costochondritis
  • Stomach cramps
  • Acid reflux
  • Diarrhea (whether I eat or not!)
  • Taut calf muscles
  • Swollen-feeling ankles and feet (without swelling)
  • Inability to remain asleep
  • No inner temperature control

Sounds like everybody else, right? But it seems that the Lyrica had reduced the impact of some of that. I just hadn’t realised how much. But the Lyrica also brought complete and utter fog.

And now I’m back at square 1; ready to start again, in a couple of weeks, to see if we can find a more effective medication regime, that will still allow me to think like a normal person!

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It’s My Life!

Woah! Really busy for me out in the real world – there is actually a life for me beyond Fibromyalgia Awareness…

As you know, last night was my fabulous shiatsu massage; but, before that, I had a very-overdue botox injection (or lots of little ones) across my forehead: Botulinum toxin, commonly referred to as Botox®, is well-known for its cosmetic use to eliminate glabellar lines, the frown wrinkles between the eyes (which is fabulous) frown_lines_beforeyet it can also relieve migraine-type headache, muscle tension headache, or chronic daily headache. Results can be dramatic. Some patients (about a third) who have suffered from daily headaches for years report being free of headaches for two to five months; so I’m hoping (at least) some of my head pain will disappear.

After that, it was an appointment with my lap-band doctor – basically unnecessary because, during this whole month, despite hardly eating because of teeth pain, I only lost 400 grams (that’s a poo!). Hopefully, after this whole ‘Lyrica-weaning’ process, I will start to lose some (much un-needed) weight!

Driving Miss DaisyToday I was lucky enough to receive my very belated birthday present – a matinee performance of Driving Miss Daisy with Angela Lansbury and James Earl Jones. I had seen the movie (a very, very long time ago – after googling it, the movie was around 1989 so I was 18) but I really didn’t remember the entire Jewish storyline, only the black racism. It was pretty damn cool and I had a (very uncomfortable) seat in the second row (that’s from the front!)

And now, tomorrow, it is Z’s 3rd birthday party (so I’ll see my father for the 1st time since The Letter) – he decided to have a gardening party with minimal decoration (BUM!) but I did what I was allowed to:

hungry caterpiller (window)hungry caterpiller

balloons

His real birthday is on Tuesday so I prepared a treasure chest of presents…

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and decorated the spare-room at my house for when he sleeps over.

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We’re going to the Zoo!

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Ring! Ring! Please Don’t Make me Pick up the Phone!

I woke up this morning, having missed a phone call from my brother. We don’t bother to leave messages – we just call each other back. Thankfully, he was unavailable and it went straight to voice mail.

KerosAgrosExplodingHeadMy head is killing me. It’s been killing me for about 5 weeks! The wonderful effects (on my head) of the first ketamine infusion seem to have worn off; and the second infusion doesn’t seem to have done anything. Yet, still, the hardest drug (other than Lyrica, etc) I am permitted to take is paracetamol. We’re working on a mix of treatments  to see if we can get rid of the headaches

Anyway, the point being, I really didn’t want to be on the phone. The phone hurts. The dial tone hurts my head. Voices are tinny. Yet I still need to make some other calls today. The voices on the other end of the line are like a colander squishing my brain out of my eyes. And what is it with hold Muzak? Why, oh why, do they choose THAT music?

And it’s really hard to close your eyes (as tight as you possibly can) to block out the sounds, when you’re supposed to be listening to the conversation.

We don’t normally think of a conversation as a strenuous mental activity, but when FIBRO FOG invades (accompanied by inexplicable head pain), it can become one. Hell, all social interaction takes energy, and when you’re not face-to-face, it takes even more.

When you’re on the phone, you lose the body language part of the conversation – this means you have to focus more. (Or not; and then not grasp any of the conversation, at all!) Pre-fibro, this was not noticeable. Now, it definitely can be. Our fibro-filled brains might not be up to the assignment.

Also, when you’re on the phone, the background (the stuff in your environment that you wouldn’t notice if some-one else was there (maybe)) can be a giant distraction. Suddenly, the house that they’re building next door, the bird chirping outside (has anyone else noticed that birds are getting louder?), the gale blowing outside – stuff that should only be on the periphery of your sub-conscious, is part of your foreground. It can (and did) hurt! While I’m trying to block out all the OTHER stuff, I end up confused as to where the conversation has gone, which is be infuriating and embarrassing. Today, I actually told my Mommy that I had to finish because our phone-call was hurting too much!

When important stuff needs to be said by me, or important stuff is said to me, my ever-trusty notebook sits with a pen on the coffee table near the phone. Only one problem with that: anyone know what I meant when I wrote down SHARE yesterday?

Any social inter-action takes energy…who would have thought (pre-fibro) that a phone call could exhaust you? I didn’t understand that then, but now I know it all too well.

And then there’s the actual conversation – my brain seems not to be attached to my mouth. I find myself starting a conversation “yeah, no, but, and, mmmm…” Then, I have to stop, take a breath, think about what I want to say and start again

And don’t get me started on holding a phone…

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Seven DEADly Sins

Last Wednesday, I had to wake up early (for me) to go have a barium swallow (for my lap-band) and a booby ultrasound (again! I have cyst-y boobs). On my way there I had pins and needles (paresthesia) up and down my left arm and, especially, in my fingers. Okay, just a normal part of waking up with FM, I thought; except it didn’t go away like it normally does. And 5 hours later, my fingers (on my left hand) started twitching all by themselves – this had never happened to me before. Other than this I felt normal (or as normal as we can be). What am I supposed to do here? is this a stroke?

I google then go to a mirror: my face is normal, I can lift both arms above my head, and I can speak properly; so, it doesn’t sound like a stroke but what the hell is it? I’m not sure this is an emergency.

I call Mommy (who is still laid up in bed, with a bulging disc sitting on one of her nerves, after 2 weeks). She asks me the same questions about stroke symptoms. She’s not sure this is an emergency.

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ambulanceThen I take her advice and call Nurse-On-Call, describing all my symptoms. Guess what? The nurse is not sure so she puts me through to 000 (911 or 999) and an ambulance. Over the phone, they’re not sure…so, with blazing lights and a screaming siren, an ambulance arrives at my place and takes me to the ER.

We’re probably more sufficiently in tune with our bodies than others to know when the pain is from FM, perhaps the result of cleaning the house a day or two before or eating that third chocolate, or if it’s something else. It’s when pain might signal something more serious that the internal dialogue begins:

“OK, this isn’t something to fool around with.”
“But is it an emergency?”
“And what if it is an emergency and you can’t tell?”
“I’ll give it one more hour.”
Etc…

So how can we tell? Here are 7 pains you should NOT ignore:

  • Worst Headache of Your Life

Get medical attention immediately. “If you have a cold, it could be a sinus headache,” says Sandra Fryhofer, MD, MACP, spokeswoman for the American College of Physicians. “But you could have a brain haemorrhage or brain tumour. With any pain, unless you’re sure of what caused it, get it checked out.”

Sharon Brangman, MD, FACP, spokeswoman for the American Geriatrics Society, says that when someone says they have the worst headache of their life, “what we learned in medical training was that was a classic sign of a brain aneurysm. Go immediately to the ER.”

  • Pain or Discomfort in the Chest, Throat, Jaw, Shoulder, Arm, or Abdomen

Chest pain could be pneumonia or a heart attack. But be aware that heart conditions typically appear as discomfort, not pain. “Don’t wait for pain,” says cardiologist Jerome Cohen, MD. “Heart patients talk about pressure. They’ll clench their fist and put it over their chest or say it’s like an elephant sitting on their chest.”

The discomfort associated with heart disease could also be in the upper chest, throat, jaw, left shoulder or arm, or abdomen and might be accompanied by nausea. “I’m not too much worried about the 18-year-old, but if a person has unexplained, persistent discomfort and knows they’re high risk, they shouldn’t wait,” says Cohen. “Too often people delay because they misinterpret it as [heartburn] or GI distress. Call 911 or get to an emergency room or physician’s office. If it turns out to be something else, that’s great.”heart attack

“A woman’s discomfort signs can be more subtle,” says Cohen, who is director of preventive cardiology at Saint Louis University School of Medicine. “Heart disease can masquerade as GI symptoms, such as bloating, GI distress, or discomfort in the abdomen. It’s also associated with feeling tired. Risk for heart disease increases dramatically after menopause. It kills more women than men even though men are at higher risk at any age. Women and their physicians need to be on their toes.”

Intermittent discomfort should be taken seriously as well.

The problem here, for us, is we have these kinds of pains all the time – sometimes it’s persistent and sometimes it’s intermittent. If you’re in ANY doubt as to the cause of your pain/discomfort, get medical attention IMMEDIATELY!

  • Pain in Lower Back or Between Shoulder Blades

“Most often it’s arthritis,” says Brangman, who is professor and chief of geriatrics at SUNY Upstate Medical University in Syracuse, N.Y. Other possibilities include a heart attack or abdominal problems. “One danger is aortic dissection, which can appear as either a nagging or sudden pain. People who are at risk have conditions that can change the integrity of the vessel wall. These would include high blood pressure, a history of circulation problems, smoking, and diabetes.”

  • Severe Abdominal Pain

stomach painStill have your appendix? Don’t flirt with the possibility of a rupture. Gallbladder and pancreas problems, stomach ulcers, and intestinal blockages are some other possible causes of abdominal pain that need attention.

  • Calf Pain

One of the lesser known dangers is deep vein thrombosis (DVT), a blood clot that can occur in the leg’s deep veins. It can be life-threatening. “The danger is that a piece of the clot could break loose and cause pulmonary embolism [a clot in the lungs], which could be fatal,” says Fryhofer. Cancer, obesity, immobility due to prolonged bed rest or long-distance travel, pregnancy, and advanced age are among the risk factors.

“Sometimes there’s just swelling without pain,” says Brangman. “If you have swelling and pain in your calf muscles, see a doctor immediately.”

  • Burning Feet or Legs

Nearly one-quarter of people who have diabetes are undiagnosed, according to the American Diabetes Association. “In some people who don’t know they have diabetes, peripheral neuropathy could be one of the first signs,” says Brangman. “It’s a burning or pins-and-needles sensation in the feet or legs that can indicate nerve damage.”

  • Vague, Combined, or Medically Unexplained Pains

Sounds like FM, right?

“Various painful, physical symptoms are common in depression,” says psychiatrist Thomas Wise, MD. “Patients will have vague complaints of headaches, abdominal pain, or limb pain, sometimes in combination.”

Because the pain might be chronic and not terribly debilitating, depressed people, their families, and health care professionals might dismiss the symptoms. “Furthermore, the more depressed you are, the more difficulty you have describing your feelings,” says Wise, who is the psychiatry department chairman at Inova Fairfax Hospital in Fairfax, Va. “All of this can lead the clinician astray.”

Other symptoms must be present before a diagnosis of depression can be made. “Get help when you’ve lost interest in activities, you’re unable to work or think effectively, and you can’t get along with people,” he says. “And don’t suffer silently when you’re hurting.”

He adds there’s more to depression than deterioration of the quality of life. “It has to be treated aggressively before it causes structural changes in the brain.”

Needless to say, my symptoms were not caused from a stroke. I sat in the ER waiting room with a(nother) cannula in my hand (REALLY OW!) for an hour and a half, alone (with all the other ER patients). After that time, I approached the nurse and said, “I came here because my symptoms indicated that there may be something life-threatening going on. Obviously, there isn’t or you guys would have dealt with me, right? So, I’m going home.”

I went to my GP the next day, with fingers and arm still tingling, but everything else was (and still is) fine; so she just told me if it gets worse or changes or there are more symptoms, come back to her or call an ambulance.

The paresthesia went away after 2 days and I am back to my normal FM-ridden self. BUT, please, if you have a new or unexplained pain, or even if you’re just in doubt, get medical attention.

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Face Leakage

It’s been 4 days since the gallbladder operation and, it seemed to me that, everything was going well. The places on my … (what’s the word for the whole bit from beneath your boobs to under that roll of fat called?), where the bandages have been placed, haven’t been hurting.

 

(But I gotta say, for an operation where there are only supposed to be 4 little holes, there’s a helluva lot of bandages!)

The Hospital Stay

I woke up from the operation with a really dry mouth and a massive headache. The nurses kept trying to give me panadol – who are they kidding! Panadeine Extra and Panadeine Forte have trouble dealing with my headaches. So, I had to fight with them each time for something stronger. I had even brought my own pain relief in (with a letter from my GP).

This may be too much information for some but, there was a lot of phantom wee-ing (I felt like I had to go to the toilet to urinate all the time despite nothing coming out).

I had a drain in one of the sites, which hurt while it was in and hurt more while it was being taken out – it literally took my breath away: I felt like the nurse was pulling my heart out through that little hole!

But after that, I was fine to get out of hospital and go home (and handle my own pain relief!)

At Home

The only pain that I really had (and I think it diminished any FM pain because of its intensity) was in my lower abdomen. Supposedly it’s gas and air from the operation PLUS 4 days of being unable to produce a bowel movement (even with Lactulose and Movicol). So I was dying for that to happen so all the pain would disappear.

Guess what? Today I had a poo. Yippee, I thought, except it felt like it was ripping my insides out. Then I was stuck in the toilet because I couldn’t turn my body to wipe myself (remember I did just have an operation!) I’m standing there, moving to the left, to the right, leaning over the toilet bowl, toilet paper in my right hand, in my left hand – all in an attempt to reach my bum (yes, you’re allowed to laugh!) And, after all of that, the pain in my abdomen has not diminished – in fact, it feels so much worse.

Back to the couch to pay my gas bill, as I watch my credit card creep ever closer to its limit; when, all of a sudden, there’s a huge crash in my bedroom. I get myself off the couch to see what happened – and I can’t even get into my room because my shoe shelf-thingy (that is supposed to be able to hold 30 pairs of shoes but only had about 15) has collapsed. There are shoes and shelf parts all over the floor and crashed against my bed and the wall; and I can’t do anything about it because bending to pick it all up makes me dizzy and hurt.

So, I’m back to sitting on my couch, with my face leaking (just feeling deeply sorry for myself), thinking I should write all of this down before I forget how I’m feeling right now.

Don’t worry, I’ll feel better later.

 

Brain Buster

Wrong time for my CT scan

= Waiting around for an available time

+ Too much noise in the waiting room

+ Inability to find a vein for contrast injection

+ Contrast injection (with resulting side effects)

= Major headache (with bonus neck pain)

+ no real post (because my brain won’t work!)