I am hoping that by writing this down, I will feel better.
I feel like Humpty Dumpty, that at any moment, I am going to fall and break into a million pieces.
As you may know, I am looking into starting my own charity – the initial aim of which is to spread awareness (of course!) and to help FM sufferers to become actively engaged in their own recovery, by giving them the opportunity and financial resources to assist them in rebalancing the systems of their bodies. There is a hell of a lot more research and planning (not to mention, money) required to start this project than I ever thought possible. I found a great site with the most helpful advice, which I am trying to print out (I prefer hard copy for reading long pieces). So far, I’ve killed 2 printers, used all the ink from another printer and produced about half a ream of reading material. That’s enough to stress me out – I’m having lots of trouble with reading for long periods of time (and this used to be my favourite past-time).
I think, from my initial research, that I have to apply to be incorporated and have at least 5 members. Then I have to apply for DGR status – which allows people to give tax-deductible donations. Then I have to start applying for fund-raising licenses. I learnt all of this from a friend, who has sent me on a net search of particular sites that would, prospectively, be good models for me to follow. Of course, I, being me, have to do that NOW!
All I want to do is design a new website and start fund-raising. I have a great idea for an annual event (which could be adopted world-wide), which I can’t tell you about because; since I published my desire for photos for my REAL video, three other photo videos have been produced by other groups. It may just be coincidental but I think this next idea is fabulous (yes! I say this myself) and I don’t want to share it; I found a wonderful site to source purple ribbon and butterfly merchandise which I could sell; the massage school wants to have a fund-raising day for my charity (except I don’t have one yet); and, there’s my Fibromyalgia Awareness Day Symposium which I would like to start looking into. And, I want to do it NOW!
Today was the last day for photos to be submitted for my REAL video, so I need to complete production. I am going to have to give up on my Johnny Cash song as Universal Music, obviously, does not think I am an important enough priority; I will have to find some royalty free music to use, as I would really like this video to be promoted and distributed throughout the FM community, and I would prefer not to be sued for breaching copyright laws. So, I have to complete it NOW!
Although the next issue of LIVING WELL with FIBROMYALGIA is not published until September 1st, I keep returning to my draft and playing with things. I can’t just leave it alone until the new contributions come in. I must have it ready NOW!
I’ve been reading my blog entries and finding them relatively boring and staid, so I need to find new sources of inspiration before I bore you all to death and have no readers. Guess what? I have to do it NOW!
I am finding it impossible to keep up to date with what is happening on other Facebook sites (you can almost forget about other people’s blogs!) but I know that there is so much information out there that is interesting, thought-provoking and, to me, necessary to read. And, I want to read it all NOW!
I have a dirty washing basket full of all my favourite clothes waiting to be washed NOW but that would mean that I have to take the clean load out of the washing machine, which would mean that I have to take the other load of stuff out of the dryer first and that would mean that I have to put the stuff away. That’s something I don’t want to do now, but probably should.
My brother just handed me a contract, which he would like me to peruse, from his bank regarding his loan for the house he is going to build (remember the previous contract that he gave me to look at?) – that would be the house contract that he is signing on Wednesday. And that would be the contract that I spent 3 days reading and taking notes on, so he would be treated fairly, without charging him for (of course). And that would be the contract that he didn’t bother to tell me that he has decided to sign. I feel affronted – it would be different if I was just his lawyer but I’m his sister, too. It would just be very nice to know.
He gave me this contract at my auntie’s place, where we (Mommy, Henry, Z, Dave, Naomi and two other people I didn’t know) were visiting my uncle, who just, very successfully, got through triple by-pass surgery; after spending the day at my Mommy’s with two of the youngest (and loudest) grandchildren.
So, it seems to all run together. And I cannot get my brain around prioritising it all.
I’m considering closing my blinds, turning off the phones, lighting candles and having a holiday at my house (by myself!) but, for that to work, I would have to throw my computer out the door, too. I don’t think that’s ever going to happen.
And it would all just be waiting for me anyway.
Hmm, I don’t feel much better after writing it all down but I think I have a better idea about what I have to do NOW!